If You Suffer From Any Form of Mental Turmoil or Mental Illness, Just Maybe This Is For You

I know how you’re feeling. I really do.

I’ve experienced maybe some of the feelings and emotions that you are feeling right now, or that you often battle with. For many years, for over 20 years, and I know how real it is.

I know that you are reading this because you’ve seen the description and it spoke to you — because you want to be free. You want to be able to ignore and not listen to and not hear that voice in your head.

I know how real this is. I can only imagine the feelings and emotions that you have gone through, the way that the thoughts in your mind have made you feel. Have made you think. Maybe how your thoughts have made you act.

I recorded the video of which this is from late at night, because I know personally, many times I used to be awake in the middle of the night, unable to sleep, with my mind racing, even though I was absolutely shattered. I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t get things out of my mind. I’d be overthinking things, I’d be getting frustrated about things that have happened in the past or things that have happened the day before. Or I would be worrying about what’s to come, worrying about what is going to happen to me or my family, or my friends, or with my job.

This is so real. What you feel, what you experience, whether its regularly, whether its rarely, whether its constantly, what you feel is so real and it can be so debilitating, it can suffocate us. It can suffocate us. It can make us feel like we don’t want to leave the house, we don’t want to speak to anyone. It can make us feel like we just want to stay in bed. That we just want to curl up and die.

This voice in our head can make us feel condemned that we will never be right, that we are always going to struggle.

You are maybe on medication. You may have ended up going to your doctors to explain how you’re feeling, maybe because you are not sleeping properly, maybe you’ve got depression, maybe you feel anxious.

You are paranoid about what things are going on around you, and by going to the doctors, that may have led you to be diagnosed with a mental illness, from anxiety and depression to bi-polar, schizophrenia — any of the mental illnesses that are known, that have tablets which aim to help. So you maybe on medication, you be on tablets, you may have been on tablets for many years of your life. Since childhood or teenage years or at any point, and maybe if you are on tablets, maybe you’ve often felt that you are going to be on tablets for the rest of your life, that there is no way out. Maybe you have thought in your mind, that if you ever come off tablets, it would be the worse thing ever. It would lead to disaster.

Maybe like I had on a few occasions, maybe you have had suicidal thoughts. Maybe you have actually contemplated taking your own life, maybe just for a fleeting few seconds, maybe for longer. Maybe you’ve actually thought about how you may do it, how you’ve thought about what you would write in a letter. Maybe you have even written a letter, a suicide note.

Maybe you feel like you have nothing left inside of you, maybe you feel hopeless. Maybe you feel lost, condemned, maybe you just can’t see any way out. Maybe you are here right now with regrets from the past, frustrations from things that have gone on in the past. There’s maybe things which you keep thinking about which make you angry or frustrated.

Maybe there are people in your life that have hurt you, whether from your childhood, through your teenage years, through any period of your life. Maybe what someone did to you has had a severe effect on your life, how you live your life and how you think about your life. Maybe you just feel imprisoned, imprisoned in your own mind.

If like me you may experience or have experienced utter frustration and desperation at wanting to ignore that voice in your head.

Maybe you’ve felt like at some points in your life you have got rid of it, that the voice in your head has stopped and that you are living with more peace and you are happy in your life.

Maybe you have gone months and months, maybe a few years, feeling quite peaceful and happy. Not having to deal with those thoughts that you hate, those thoughts that drag you back into the past, those thoughts that make you anxious or frustrated, or angry.

Maybe you’ve had periods in your life where things have been calm and peaceful, and you’ve been happy, and you’ve enjoyed your life. You’ve enjoyed being around the people in your life, your friends, your family, your work colleagues. But then you have found that at some point in your life, maybe all of a sudden, maybe triggered through an event or a conversation, or a phonecall or receiving an email, someone knocking at your door, receiving a letter — maybe all of a sudden his voice has come back, and you suddenly realise you are having the same fears, the same feelings, the same emotions. You are feeling anxious again or you are feeling paranoid again. You’re feeling like you can’t be happy. So even though you’ve had periods in your life where you’ve been quite peaceful and you have felt happy, out of nowhere you find yourself back in thei dark place, trying to battle with this voice in your head. It just seems to have come back and maybe come back stronger. Maybe you are now starting to worry about even more things, or different things are making you anxious, or you find yourself getting even more angry.

I know how real this is. I know it is debilitating. It's suffocating.

It can just consume thoughts, it can consume the way we think, the way we act, the way we behave. I can make us not love ourselves, it can make us think that no-one loves us. These thoughts and emotions going through our mind, they can make us feel like no-one loves us.

They can make us feel like we want to end it all as our life isn’t worth living.

We just want peace. You just want peace in your heart and want your mind to be still, continuously still, not just for a few moments or a few hours or a few days or a few months, but you want your mind to always be still.

You want to live in peace, in joy and happiness. But you just keep getting dragged back. You made progress you are moving forward, then you just get dragged back.

Tablets and medication

Maybe if you are on tablets, maybe the tablets have lead to you feeling maybe a bit calmer and maybe not experiencing as vivid or dramatic mood swings maybe. Maybe you have been diagnosed with bi-polar, you are on medication, maybe you are on lithium, and maybe the tablets you are on, you’ve not been having as many highs and lows as what you were doing, or what you have done. But then even whilst you are on medication, something can just happen in your life which can trigger thoughts to come back into your mind and it leads you to be in a state of mania or at the other end of the emotional spectrum. Something can happen to even whilst on medication which means you suddenly lurch back into depression. Maybe you are watching this and you are in hospital at the moment, maybe you are in a psychiatric hospital or you have been in a psychiatric hospital. You’ve battled for years and years with this voice in your head, and your doctor has prescribed you different tablets. Maybe you are on more than one tablet right now.

Maybe you feel like you will always be on tablets for the rest of your life. Maybe you’ve been told. Maybe you just feel trapped. You may just feel like you are in a nightmare and you just wish you could wake up from it.

Maybe you want to cry, maybe you want to be emotional, but maybe there is something stopping you, is preventing you, from opening up and letting your emotions out and crying, whether on your own or in front of someone close to you, or maybe with a stranger.

Maybe you just feel like there is something missing in your life.

You may feel devoid of all emotion. Emotionless. You don’t experience joy, happiness, peace, but then also you maybe don’t experience depressive thoughts and condemning thoughts but maybe you are just going through life on auto-pilot, just not really enjoying life because you are surviving rather than truly living.

Maybe it has been months since you last heard birds tweeting when you are outside. Maybe you think that everyone around you has got it sorted, that everyone else is in a good place and is happy and peaceful, and its just you. Maybe you feel shame and embarrassment and maybe you’ve never wanted to talk about your feelings and emotions, because in your mind, that voice is telling you that other people have got it sorted and “don’t go sharing your thoughts, don’t go sharing your burdens, you don’t want to put them on other people.” Or maybe you have thought you don’t want to share your challenges with other people because they’ve got enough on their plate.

Maybe you sometimes look on social media and think that everyone just seems like they’ve got it sussed, everyone has got it sorted, look how happy they are, they’ve got what they want, they’ve got their family, they’ve got nice things, they’re happy, they’re smiling, they’re going doing great things.

Maybe you just feel at the end of yourself. Maybe you just feel right now and at periods in your life, you just feel lost and condemned and maybe you have resigned yourself to believing that how you are and how you feel that this is just you. This is just the way it is. This is just nature. This is just you and how your mind works and you just need to live with it. Maybe people have told you to “just get over it”, “snap out of it”.

Maybe someone has said to you that as you grow older you will feel better or maybe after you have overcome this particular period in your life you will feel better. Maybe you have been going through a lot in your life and maybe you have lost someone that you love.

The impact of Coronavirus

Maybe you have been grieving, maybe a relationship has broken down or you may have lost your job. Maybe the last 4 or 5 months with the Coronavirus lockdown, maybe your emotions and your thoughts have run riot and kind of run rampage with you. Maybe in the last 4–5 months in 2020 due to the lockdown and social distancing, and the fear of this virus, maybe you have been consumed with fear, anxiety, unable to go out or not wanting to go out. Afraid to go to the shop or supermarket. Afraid to go to the doctors. Maybe you have been desperately wanting to go to the doctors but you’ve had too much fear to go to the doctors, for fear that you might catch the virus.

Anger

Maybe before the lockdown, maybe you had a tendency to get angry about things, maybe small things. Maybe angry with yourself or other people, when someone says something or does something. Then you are now finding that because of the lockdown you are actually feeling, you are getting angrier or you are getting angry quicker. You are staying angry for longer.

Maybe even, you have hurt the people closest to you through your words, your actions, through your behaviour. Maybe you are racked with shame and guilt as to what you’ve done or behaved or said in the past. Or how you continue to behave or act.

Deep down you don't want to hurt anyone

But I know from personal experience, having been in the battle that you are in for all of my adult life, for around 25 years, I know something about you. The chances are we have never met before, and chances are we may never meet. But I know something about you. You don’t want to live like this. You don’t want to think like this. You don’t want to behave like this. Deep down in your heart, you just want to be free. You want to be able to break free, break these habits, these habits which lead to behaviour, that lead to people being hurt, and to you being hurt.

Maybe you physically hurt yourself, maybe you self harm, but you are watching this right now because deep down you don’t want to do this. You don’t want to continue doing this to yourself. You don’t want to hurt your husband or your wife or your boyfriend or your girlfriend or your children, or your grandparents. You don’t want this. Deep down in your heart you don’t want to hurt anyone.

You want to be free and ignore that voice in your head

You just want to be free. You want to be able to ignore that voice in your head. You want to just be able to bat it away before it even has a chance to start affecting your thoughts and your behaviour. You want to be free. You want to live in peace, you want to feel peace in your heart.

You want to be happy, you want to smile. You want to feel love, you want to feel love you want to feel loved, you want to love other people. You want to love the people closest to you. Deep down you don’t want to hurt the people closest to you, I know this.

This may be the first time you have heard this in your life

This maybe is the first time in your life that you have been told this.

You are a precious child of God.

Our Father in Heaven created you in your mother's womb. You are loved by our Father in Heaven more than you could possibly comprehend. You are loved. Our Father in Heaven sent his only begotten son Jesus Christ on to earth, not to condemn the world but to save the world. Jesus Christ died on the cross for you, yes you. To take your sins away. No sin, nothing that you have ever done, is too great to be forgiven by our Father in Heaven. By the precious precious blood of Jesus Christ, who died on the cross for you.

You are loved. You are beautiful. You have got an incredible heart. You are not your past.

Jesus loves you. Jesus loves you and don’t let anyone that is in your life, ever tell you that that isn’t true, because this is true. And don’t let anyone ever try to convince you into thinking that God doesn’t exist, or that God isn’t a good loving Father.

God exists. We, me and you, were created, in our mother's womb. Our Father is our Creator, we are His children. Don't ever let that voice in your head try and deceive you into thinking that you are not a child of God, because you are a precious child of God. You may never have been told these truths before, but then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.

This is a message for you, who the Son sets free, is free indeed.

You are loved. For God did not give you a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-control. And light always shines in the dark, and the darkness has never put it out.

If you are crying now, just keep letting it out. Crying is one of the most important things that we can do. Our Father in Heaven see everything, He sees all your tears. None of the tears you have ever shed have been wasted. Our Father is just waiting, just waiting for you to come back to your first love, to come back to your Father.

Our Father knows what you have been through. He knows what has happened in your life. He knows the challenges that you have had. He knows how people have treated you. He knows what you have done. He knows everything. He sees everything. Our Father knows your thoughts. He knows everything, and He knows how much you have wanted and you have yearned to be set free, from feeling chained up.

God knows everything and sees everything in your life

God knows everything. You may be watching this having never in your life being told, in the years since childhood, maybe never in your life, but particularly since your teenage years, before reading this you may never have been told that you are a child of God, and that Jesus Christ loves you and that He died on the cross so that your sins and your transgressions can be forgiven by our Father. Maybe you have never heard this before.

What happens to everyone from birth is that we are separated from our Father, and sometimes what we experience in our lives, our childhoods, sometimes we experience bad things either as a one-off or maybe over a longer period of time. Maybe you have experienced some things in your childhood or teenage years that have scarred you mentally and emotionally.

When we experience bad things in our lives, either by how other people treat us or how we treat other people, our mind and our thoughts are focused on these negative experiences and we are not given the opportunity or the guidance and support to lift our head up and to learn about and realise that we are loved by our Father in Heaven.

God’s Agape Love for you

Agape love is what comes from God. This is Gods unparalleled, unending love for all of us. But you may have lived your life so far until watching this video separated from the love of our Father as you just didn’t know. Maybe no-one has been in your life to tell you this. But what I’m sharing is what you have been searching for. This is the answer you have been searching for. This is the truth and the truth will now set you free.

Our Father in Heaven is close to the brokenhearted and is there for those who are crushed in spirit. Right now you may like this. You may feel crushed in spirit. You may feel brokenhearted. You may feel condemned.

More good news for you

I have some more good news for you. Not only are you a precious child of God. Not only is our Father in Heaven full of unfailing love. Not only did Jesus Christ die on the cross so your sins and transgressions could be forgiven. Not only is there all this good news.

God will start fighting your battles for you

I have more good news. Your life is going to be transformed. Step by step, your life is going to turnaround. And step by step the battles that you have faced in your mind over time, step by step those battles will be taken away from you, because those battles will be fought by our Father. You will no longer fight those battles on your own.

Take one more step forward?

Do you feel ready to take one more step, the next step forward? Because reading this post, choosing to read this post, which may have been a battle to even click on to start reading, but you’ve started reading it, but I also know you’ve probably had a battle in your mind to continue reading this post. Maybe that voice in your head, whilst you have been reading this, maybe that voice has been trying to tell you that this isn’t for you, or that you will never be free, or maybe you will watch it another time, or maybe this is just not going to work.

I praise God and I thank God and I thank the Holy Spirit that you are still here reading this post, having taken the biggest stride forward in your life that you could ever possibly have taken, because you have taken a step forward in to learning about and realising about the depth of love that our Father in Heaven, that God, has for you.

This is such an incredible step forward for you.

I have spoken about our Father in Heaven, about our Creator, our miracle-working Father. I have spoken about His son Jesus Christ, who lived a sinless life yet was still persecuted and yet was still hung on a cross, and who died and shed his blood to take away your sins and transgressions, so our Father in Heaven can forgive you for anything and everything you have ever done. So that is our Father in Heaven and His son Jesus Christ.

There is one more hugely important thing I need to share with you, and that is the Holy Spirit. The Spirit of God. The Holy Spirit. It is the Holy Spirit that is coming upon you and that is waiting to overflow within you. It is the Holy Spirit that works within us to transform us from the inside out. What we need to do is invite the Holy Spirit upon on, to invite the Holy Spirit into our life.

If you are ready, if you feel ready, if you feel at such a point in your life right now, whether you are in a really dark place or an OK place, if you want to finally and completely begin experiencing life being set from that voice in your head. To finally be able to stop listening to that voice in your head. Then if you are ready, I am going to share a prayer. It is a prayer for you to personally read out loud.

Our Father has good plans for your life

Our Father in Heaven, He has got plans for your life, He wants you to be free, He is waiting to set you free, He is waiting for you to come to Him, having learnt and realised that His Son Jesus Christ died on the cross to take away your sins, and Jesus rose again on the 3rd day.

Out Father is just waiting with open arms. You are loved. You are loved so, so much. You have been chosen to be free. Who the Son sets free is free indeed. Thank you, thank you so much for the inner strength that you have shown, for the battle that you have won in the last 20mins in your mind to keep reading this.

No matter where you are in your life, no matter what you have done, no sin is greater than the love of God, than the grace of God, the grace of our Father, the grace of your Father in Heaven.

A prayer to declare Jesus is your Lord and Saviour

Here is the prayer for you to receive Jesus as your personal Lord and Saviour. All you have to do is read it out loud, and really mean what you say.

Lord Jesus, thank you for giving Your life for me and forgiving me of my sins so I can have a personal relationship with you. I am sincerely sorry for the mistakes I have made and I know that I need you to help me live right. Your word says in Romans 10:9 “If you acknowledge and confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, recognising His power, authority and majesty as God, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.” I believe You are the Son of God and I confess you as my Saviour and Lord. Take me just as I am and work in my heart making me the person you want me to be. I want to live for you, Jesus, and I am so grateful to You for giving me a fresh start in my new life with you today. I love you Jesus, Amen.”

Praise God for your life, may the Lord bless you and protect you.

May you be filled with the Holy Spirit, because the Spirit that lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world. I thank our Father in Heaven for your life, you are a precious child of God, you are loved more than you could possibly comprehend.

Thank you for clicking on to read this and staying reading this. You are a child of God. No weapon formed against you will prosper, and every tongue that rises up against you, the Lord will condemn, because this is the heritage of the Lord. God has not given you a spirit of fear, but of power, love and self-control. Faith, hope and love remain. But the greatest of these is love.

Let everything you say be kind and humble. May the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.

I thank our Father in Heaven for your life. For now, there is no condemnation for those who live in Christ Jesus. The light always shines in the dark and the darkness has never put it out.

You are a precious child of God. Even the hairs on your head are numbered. God created you in His image. You have been chosen to be free.

Reading this post, whether on the 1st time round you read out that prayer, maybe it was on the 2nd time, but reading this with me sharing the truth and the love of God has been the moment in your life you have been yearning for, you have been pining for, what you have been searching for you. Knock, and the door will be opened, ask and you will hear. You are now seated in the right hand of the Father. Your sins and transgressions have all been forgiven.

“Praise God, Hallelujah thank You Jesus”

Something that you have maybe said in your life before now, is saying “Praise God!” Maybe you have never said before “Thank You, Jesus.” Maybe you have never said “Hallelujah, thank you Jesus.” Maybe you have never said these words before. But these words, praising our Father in Heaven, thanking Jesus for dying on the cross for you, these words will now become part of how you think and the words that you say, the words that you declare. Thanking our Father in Heaven.

He has never left you nor forsaken you. He has just been waiting patiently for this moment in your life. Praise God. Praise God.

Your life is already starting to change

I thank the Holy Spirit for being upon you now. The Holy Spirit will never leave you.

Because of this huge life-changing step you have taken to read this and declare that Jesus is your Lord and Saviour, your life is already starting to change. The old will be gone and the new will start to come in and come and take over. The way you think, the way you act, the way you feel, the way you behave.

But you are going to experience that same voice in your head trying desperately to make you feel like you used to feel. That voice will try and come back, it will try and come back even stronger, and it may for a period of time, feel like you are in even more of a battle. The only reason that is happening, and it is temporary, it is temporary, is that that voice it is desperately trying to keep you separated from the love of God. Buy you have been given the authority to trample on scorpions and serpants, and the peace of God, I declare over you now, will soon crush Satan under your feet, may the Lord Jesus Christ be with you.

You have been chosen to be free.

Just take some deep breaths. Something that you can say, you can say this at any time at all, when you are on your own, when that voice that you have battled with for so many years, when it starts to come back, if you are starting to feel the emotions that you have battled with for years whether its anxiety, depression, paranoia, fear, worry, whatever it is — when those emotions start to come back over in this temporary phae you are going to go through, just say these words, repeat these words out loud.

“Holy Spirit I need you, Holy Spirit fill me. Holy Spirit I need you, Holy Spirit fill me up.”

You can just repeat those words, you are just declaring in the spiritual realm that you are now starting to experience, you are just declaring that you want the Holy Spirit to come upon you. The spirits that are not of God will be crushed under your feet, as God has given you the authority. I will declare to those spirits right now, that may be planning an attack or a counter-attack on your mind, I will declare to them right now that

“It is finished. And no weapons that are formed against you will prosper, in the name of Jesus Christ.I declare the blood of Jesus CHrist over your whole being, and I humbly ask that our Father sends out His Heavenly angels to provide you with a hedge of divine protection from the fiery darts of the enemy.”

I thank God for your life, I thank God for the Holy Spirit being upon you, and I thank God and I praise God for the plans He has for your life. You are beautiful, you are a child of God, a precious child of God. Who the Son sets free is free indeed. You will in time, in Gods perfect time, be completely and utterly free, liberated from any of the feelings and emotions that you have experienced in your past, that you have battled with for maybe years. I declare that they are gone, they will be gone and they are gone in the name of Jesus Christ. I praise God and thank you for your life.

Thank you for reading this. You are brave, you are a precious child of God. Thank you, thank you.

May the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.

Agape,

Paul